Eh.

I am so thankful for my girlfriends.

I spent a half an hour talking to Nanner* tonight. I am so blessed to have a best friend that I can relax and trust. Then Gabriel* (Gabby for short, ha ha ha) and we talked for about 45 minutes. I’m not as close to Fiona* as I used to be. (For those of you just tuning in, I met Fiona in 2001 when I was working in customer care at mcleod and she introduced me to her best friend (Nanner) and was so worried that we wouldn’t get along and now she’s my best girlfriend.) But we get along fine for the most part. The way I see our relationship, she makes choices that I wouldn’t make, but it’s her life not mine; and for some insane reason, she’s like, almost afraid of me. She makes ten million excuses to Nanner why she doesn’t call me. Well, there was that time that she was supposed to move in with me and after talking about it for almost six months, she came over the night she was supposed to move in to tell me that she wasn’t moving in. And then I had to figure out how in the hell I was going to afford my mortgage payment without that extra $200/month. And yeah, I was pretty pissed and let her know that I was pissed in no uncertain terms. But I was never disrespectful to her. Oh, well. There was a point I was trying to make here. Oh, yes. Jess – don’t think it’s strange that you don’t have friends you’ve known for 20+ years. I don’t know anyone who is still in contact with someone from elementary school. Girlfriends come and go. It’s the nature of the beast. Girls are catty and picky and snippy and bitchy. And if you can find one that you can stand and even more rare, that can stand you too, well, you hang onto her. The only person I know from elementary school is Tammy and we fell out of contact right after graduation and then I didn’t see her again until 1997 and that was only bcus I hunted her down. Then after we visited, I never talked to her again. I didn’t want to be pushy so I was waiting for her to make the next contact and she never did. Here’s my girlfriends and the years I’ve known them. Sue – 1996 (and just recently a whole year went by that we didn’t talk and she just called me out of the blue.) Fiona – 2001. Nanner – 2003. Gabby – 2001. CB – 2001. Jenny – 2003. Rainy – 2003. Dana and Kizzle – 2004. And you, Jess… ummm… 1988? 1990? The first picture I have of you with me that I can think of was from Grand Bethel 1991. And we had known each other a while then. And that’s the extent of my girlfriends. With the exception of Sue, everyone else I talk to at least once a month. There’s not very many. But they’re GOOD relationships, and I’m very blessed to have them.

In other news, my Little Bit is sick. :o( When it comes to sick kids, I am really not a great mom. I’m so afraid they’re going to puke on me, I avoid them. I get so nervous. I have a very serious Thing about puking. From what I remember, that’s what Mom was like with me. “You’re pukey? Talk to ya in a few days when you’re over that.” So I think I come by it real honestly. Well, wait, I have one very vivid memory of Tea Berry being sick when she was really little, like too little to make it to the toilet. And Mom had given her some jello bcus she was pukey and it wasn’t staying down. So we’re sitting in our room, and Mom was holding this towel under her mouth and T was puking into it. And I said, “Mom, how can you do that? I couldn’t do that.” And she said something to the effect of, “Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do. When you’re a mom, you’ll do it.” Sorry, Mom. Still can’t do it.

That’s all my news…

* Names have been changed to protect the crazy.

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